The real day 1

 Welcome to the next 15-60 days, yeah I still haven't decided how far I am going to go with this. What is this? This is a juice fast, you know what everyone in the world seems to be doing. Here is the thing, I absolutely love writing and this way I can stay behind a computer and no one has to know who I am. I dont have to show my face I dont have to pretend to be someone I am not, but on the other side of things, I am a terrible writer. My grammar is embarrassing, my spelling is even worse, so if you can look past that I hope we can be friends. ;)

Back to my juice fast, why am I doing this?
 Background: I am sick, my stomach is sick. When I was a senior in high school I had my galbladder removed because it was failing it was only working at 3% and the pain it created was terrible. My doctors and family all decided it would be best for me. Wish I had known it would change my life forever. With I had known it would make me ill at least once a month. I wish I had known I had other options, but thats not how it works when you are 17. They have a name for what I have, Postcholecstectomy syndrome. If you have the time to look it up you will see all it tells me is how I feel not so much how I can fix this. When eating food my stomach spasms, and everything goes through me before my body can steal the good stuff from my food. Instead I just get the bad stuff and illness. Now I am not blaming this on that fact that I am overweight, that is all up to me. That was my inability to say no to some of my favorite things. From this I am upset that I am so unhealthy and things like bending over to pick something up or going out to ice skate or even picking up snowboarding again... seem impossible.

So now my goals for what I want in the future.
1. Get down to my goal weight of 160.
Yeah thats right 160 pounds for a girl who is only 5'6"... Sounds crazy right?
Trust me when I say I just want to be healthy not perfectly thin, I dont want to fit into a size 2 jean.. actually I dont really believe that is possible. If I were a size 9/10 at 160pounds I would be so happy about that! I remember when I was that size, I was able to dance, sing, ski anything I wanted!
2. I want to pick up skiing/snowboarding and Dance again!
Right now just walking 3 miles is enough to kill me....
3. I want to have my old confidence back so I am not afraid to leave my house anymore.
4. I want to go to the gym once a week.
I know that sounds so low but right now once a week isn't enough to kill me, just enough to get me a little bit more active. Also I know that this juice diet isn't going to give me a lot of energy. When I go to the gym my goal is an hour on treadmill until I feel healthy enough to do anything else.

Okay now that I have shared everything except my actual weight as of today...
I want to talk about my morning juice!
-I had apple and honeydew! It was amazing!
Lunch I am a little afraid of...
lets see if I can remember what I put in it...
Apple
Spinach
Kale
Oh and a little bit of pineapple juice!